Guilty

I’m feeling guilty.

When dad wrote the cheque, he looked so stressed. It’s a huge sum of money, really. All but into a one year education that i’m going to be embarking on. He asked me if i’m confident that i can get through and earn myself a degree in graphic communication. I told him that i can write, i can design so it should be ok. Of course there will be difficulties but that’s what learning is about. He seemed rather convinced but still look stressed. Or was he tired?

Also my laptop will be costing roughly 3.3k… I know it’s a much needed 3.3k laptop but still, no one has gotten something so expensive at home before. My eldest brother had a laptop that recently broke down after maybe 8 years? Well mine’s 6 years old and it is really slow when it comes to doing what i need to do, design. But i still can manage with it. I mean… It’s a mix between a need and a want. That’s making me feel guilty. But since school’s going to start soon, i will really need it… Tomorrow i shall bank in the cheque that he wrote me and i’ll go make the purchase the day after.

Oh yea i started teaching tuition. Have got two students currently. One is a sec 3 boy who seems to a have some form of disability, either speech or mental. This disability is really mild as he’s still schooling at a mainstream secondary school. But from what I can conclude, he has got speech problem, slight adhd and very bad grammar. But i also realized that he’s got a good memory, good learning attitude and is a really nice boy. The second one is a sec 3 girl whom i knew from NCC. She’s cute like a little sister and i think it’s gonna be fun tutoring her.

From tuition, i’m going to be earning 3.5 hundred every month and from there, i still need to earn more so that i’ve got something to spend and still have got savings. Maybe one or two more tutees? Hmmm need to go find more kids to teach. I’m actually worying about money. I hate to have to ask my dad for an allowance and i won’t do so. Guess i’ll have to really cut down on my daily expenses and not spend so much. Is 350 enough for a month? I hope so… That’s around 10 dollars everyday with 50 dollars savings…

Ok my aim is to keep my spendings to 10 dollars per day or less!

Oh just to note, i love lifting my girl! =D

Sleepily,
Hong Jun